A story of sobriety.
No surprise you found me
I came home and you were there
All around in the room waiting
I shouldn’t be shocked about this day
The monster in my closet has awoken
It’s beating on the door to be open
It knows my world is in danger
It only knows hate and anger
But I can’t focus on that
The enemy is here in the room
They’ve tied you to a chair
You have been targeted for doom
The clock is ticking on the vest
A bomb they have strapped to your chest
That closet door won’t hold long
I have to defuse this before more goes wrong
How they got inside I do not know
We need to run but have nowhere to go
I can’t believe this happened in our home
The craft on this bomb is unlike any known
Quickly calming your mind of the stress
I’ve done this before but I’ve never seen this
Looking at its build closely to stop the time
This design of the bomb is one of mine
How could my own work deceive me
Who would have access to my own crime
The closet door creaked open freely
The monster inside could always get to me
Behind me stood a bigger problem
The monster I locked away is free
Getting him back in isn’t an option
I have to handle it with caution
And so the camera rotates
Sitting on the bench in a courtroom
Judged by twelve who never pushed a broom
I did what I had to during those times
I’ll never be prosecuted for my crimes
Never once did I leave a trace of evidence
I planned everything out with persistence
No cameras caught me in the act
No one knew if what I did was fact
The face of the judge is certain in his mind
He wants to throw me away this time
But there is distortion in his physical structure
The judge was taken over by this monster
Guilty on all charges presented
All in agreement of their decision
A life sentence passed without evidence
A conspiracy to get me locked from existence
Stood up and escorted out to the van
The monster jumping from face to face
I’ve been in worse situations at a faster pace
The van won’t make it there with this man
And so the camera rotates
Please you don’t want to do this
Take whatever you want from us
We won’t tell anyone or even the police
Just please leave us here in peace
Behind his ski mask I could see it
The face of a monster that taunted me
A person who has forever haunted me
I just wanted him to leave before we got hit
Ripping apart our house looking for something
He’s determined that we have it hidden away
Without telling what it is he keeps destroying
Frustrated with things not going his way
Certain I am keeping what he wants hidden
He turns on my wife to motivate my mind
Begging for him to stop before it’s unforgiven
What he’s looking for I don’t have this time
He shoots her and stares deep into me
Remember this the next time you steal
What I had with me he could never be
I know where he lives and wife sleeps
Now I’ll wait for him to get home
His wife tied to a chair strapped with a bomb
He took what I loved the most from me
I’ll hide in a closet while he tries to get her free
And so the camera rotates…..
Forever the cycle will continue
A constant war that will ensue
A man trying to save his family
His wife never knew him truthfully
A man on trial for crimes against humanity
His actions were driven by situational insanity
A man shattered by someone criminally ill
His revenge driven by loss of his own will
In this, the monster to me is represented in the form of alcohol.
The first segment in my mind is what it is like after having a horrible day and just wanting to relax. But you can’t go down that path. The thirst is a ticking time bomb that you have to defuse. The monster inside the closet is past that you have kept locked away. No matter how hard you try, you won’t ever run away from it. You have to face it and be cautious with it, know what it is and overcome it.
The second segment in my mind is what I depict as a relapse. You have slipped, you fell from your path and messed up. Now this sobriety that you have held onto for so long seems like a joke to everyone else. Let me tell you something, that is not true. We all mess up at times. Pick yourself up, brush your clothes off and keep your head high. Don’t let it dissuade you from your goal. Don’t let the substance be the judge of you. The courtroom is temporary, the time after is for you to decide freely.
The third segment, this one was hard for me. Sometimes you fight with your spouse, friends, family, coworkers or any one else. No lie, sometimes I feel it creep up behind me like a robber, ready to steal my sobriety. Even when this evil shows up in the face of the one I love the most, I can’t let it beat me. The moment I give up and let the robber take what they want, I’ve started down that path again. In life you will be subject to actions that are out of your hands. How you react is what matters more, if you give in, the robber wins. Let them toss your mind, trash your mental space and harass you. Eventually it will leave if you stay strong.
Don’t let the cycle continue.
Be the change your family needs.
They look to you to remain true.
You can only grow if you plant the seeds.