If I’m going to do this then the only way is to bring everything to light.
The person I am today didn’t happen overnight.
There are bodies in my past that have never been found
People who have gone missing without a sound
The first person I killed,
A ten year old boy.
He never had a chance to be innocent
I suffocated him with cigarette smoke in a field.
The second person I killed,
A thirteen year old boy.
He never got a chance to live with joy
I got him addicted to drugs and he overdosed on a dark street
The third person I killed,
A seventeen year old young man.
He never knew how much everyone loved him
I forced him to take his own life in the middle of the night.
The fourth person I killed,
A twenty one year old man.
He never thought he needed anyone,
I made him live on the streets until he died of starvation.
The fifth person I killed,
A twenty four year old man.
He never saw what he had in front of him,
I drug him behind my truck in the mountains because he wouldn’t get sober.
In order for one to move on,
the old version of you must be gone.
If you decided to stay,
You will forever be tied to,
Your past ways,
Your past relationships,
Your past problems.
Only when you decide to move on,
Can you finally look back and see what was wrong.
Because of my past I have dealt with,
Things I wish I had never done,
People I wish I had never got involved with,
Places I wish I had never been to.
But nothing can change that now.
Would I go back and change if I could,
Probably not but nobody ever would.
You become the person you are from your past
You can’t run from it,
You can’t hide from it,
You can’t deny any of it.
Instead.
You can face it.
You can confront it.
You can learn from it.
Become the person you want to be,
Not the person you got blamed for being.
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